"No blank space anywhere here”
"Heartstream"
Frances Boyle
Frances Boyle (she/her) is the author of two books of poetry, most recently This White Nest (Quattro Books, 2019), and also of the short story collection Seeking Shade (The Porcupine’s Quill, 2020) and the novella Tower (Fish Gotta Swim Editions, 2018). Recent work appears or is forthcoming in Best Canadian Poetry 2020, Event, Prairie Fire, Dreich, The Wild Word, and Mookychick. She lives in Ottawa and writes reviews for Canthius and Arc Poetry Magazine.
“‘No blank space anywhere here’ is a response to the poem ‘Morgonfåglar’ by Tomas Tranströmer, translated as ‘Morning Birds,’ in particular the repeated line which I’ve used as the title and an echoing and varied element throughout my poem. It also partially reflects my feelings of being tangled up as I read the original Swedish (which I don’t understand).”
“‘Heartstream’ is my response to — and incorporates the rhythms of — Suzanne Vega’s song “Tom’s Diner,” especially her original version (which I adore) but also the DNA remix. The song’s beats and pauses have long remained with me, and they echo the sensations of my own arrhythmic heartbeat when I was experiencing heart conditions known as ‘atrial flutter’ and ‘atrial fibrillation.’ Those feelings took me on the rhyming journey in the poem, which also includes nods to Ursula K. Le Guin, James Taylor, and J. R. R. Tolkien.”
Where’s the rhythm? goes my heartbeat, it is full and fast and false
Where’s the rhythm in my heartbeat and a second chance to waltz?
There’s a lurching in the rhythm in the rhythm there’s a pause
And I just go on despite it That is just the way it was
when the blurring and the shine came to wipe me clear at root
and I walked inside the magic and I scarcely went a foot
til I found the sleepy silence of the fish that met the net
as a blockage, not a capture not a sequence of events
Where’s the wriggle, where’s the pulsing and the time so free and fast
Here’s a heartbeat, here’s a giggle, time to make this moment last
Where’s the oceanic meaning? heartbeat pause and watch and drum
Come to me my baby darling, don’t you know what you’ll become
You’ll become a shriek at morning, you’ll become a lazy cow
you’ll be walking in the phrase-book long beyond the girl-faced sun
And Ms Vega of the rhythm that is ticking in my soul
says the rhythm is the moment where you never can grow old
Lose the rhythm lose momentum, find the rhythm it can raise
Catch the heartbeat, move the heartbeat, looking for the words to praise
Hold up holy, hold up scandal, hold up faces as they age
Delight in what we’re doing, fear that things may never change
Worry pictures, worry puppies, worry how I’m going to grow
Here’s the heartbeat, it will carry me along the road below
Find the rhythm, keep the heartstream, brave into the fire I go
And I sing lalala lala and I sing before I know
And I sing a song to fire and I sing a song of rain
just like James did on the stereo when my singing was my pain
along the edge of notice in the shadow of the word
And the word for world is forest and the singing of a bird
comes above the beat I hear here, though the singing sounds absurd
Scream and trill aren’t all in rhythm No, I lost it with the birds
Back to heartbeat, that’s my centre that is where it all will end
When I sing the trail before me I will see beyond the bend
see the river rush and wander see the trees grow tall or fall
And I weep because I have to no fine lines to shape it all
Words are shifty, words are lala and words can run away
and the words go on forever til the finish of the day
And it’s all so very very same and different as it goes
and I rhyme the same old rhymes from my head down to my toes
Old, familiar are the shapes and words and patterns as they come
and I write the sweet familiar don’t go beating on a drum
Find the rhythm outside rhythm find the silence that I spin
in the net that is the throbbing central focus of the din
Beyond the noise and silence little rhythm that I hum
I will tell the world my stories words and spaces as they come
And the road goes on forever (there’s a hobbit in my song!)
and I write the world I see here in the rhythm of the sun
in the rhythm of the downpour in the rhythm of the room
and the net will hold us tight and weather words will tell the tune