"Little Island"

"Storm King"

Cassidy McFadzean

Cassidy McFadzean was born in Regina. She studied poetry at the Iowa Writers’ Workshop and fiction at Brooklyn College, where she is Fiction Editor at The Brooklyn Review. She is the author of two books of poetry: Drolleries (McClelland & Stewart 2019), shortlisted for the Raymond Souster Award, and Hacker Packer (M&S 2015), which won two Saskatchewan Book Awards and was a finalist for the Gerald Lampert Memorial Award. Her crown of sonnets, Third State of Being. was published by Gaspereau Press in 2022.

“‘Little Island’ responds to Barry Diller’s Little Island @Pier 55 (2021) in New York, which I encountered in 2021.”

“‘Storm King’ responds to the Storm King sculpture park and makes specific mention of Maya Lin’s Storm King Wavefield (2007-08).

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My beloved eats sliced oranges
wrapped in lavashak

I’m sobbing at the concert behind the pair
who aren’t mother and son

My mask soaks up my tears
I’m just so happy to be here

singing Lucinda Williams’ Like a Rose
I never stutter when I’m alone

We were two guinea pigs on little island
darting into the other’s fur

The art of back-scratching
A certain architecture or ballet

As a child I spent hours searching
for a word that rhymes with orange

The doctor said my cervix
was like a tiny mouth, smiling

I mistook my nipple
for a pebble at the beach

It’s no longer smiling, she said,
inserting the speculum into me

The citizens of this land build massive sculptures

to honour the king     And when he is pleased he shows mercy

And if he is displeased he rouses a hurricane

At very end of our trip it was supposed to rain but didn’t

We approached Wavefield but didn’t walk on the wave

We lay by a wall of stone where I read to you “Mending Wall”

And after weeks of discomfort, finally cracked my back

At home I bathed in the green copper water

I asked what you were building and you said context

We should think of each day as having twelve rounds

I’m tired of feeling things in my body     Like ions

All the apartment’s doorknobs have been removed

The last tenant afraid of being locked inside

In a house with no exits     It’s details that frustrate:

That my mother described her symptoms to a pharmacist

concerned they were a side effect of medication

(she was having the heart attack that killed her)

I stare into middle distance as defence mechanism

(so I don’t get attacked on the subway again)

Fear manifests as compulsion     Where is the feeling

I used to have (that life was taking place)

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