"Little Island"
"Storm King"
Cassidy McFadzean
Cassidy McFadzean was born in Regina. She studied poetry at the Iowa Writers’ Workshop and fiction at Brooklyn College, where she is Fiction Editor at The Brooklyn Review. She is the author of two books of poetry: Drolleries (McClelland & Stewart 2019), shortlisted for the Raymond Souster Award, and Hacker Packer (M&S 2015), which won two Saskatchewan Book Awards and was a finalist for the Gerald Lampert Memorial Award. Her crown of sonnets, Third State of Being. was published by Gaspereau Press in 2022.
“‘Little Island’ responds to Barry Diller’s Little Island @Pier 55 (2021) in New York, which I encountered in 2021.”
“‘Storm King’ responds to the Storm King sculpture park and makes specific mention of Maya Lin’s Storm King Wavefield (2007-08).
My beloved eats sliced oranges
wrapped in lavashak
I’m sobbing at the concert behind the pair
who aren’t mother and son
My mask soaks up my tears
I’m just so happy to be here
singing Lucinda Williams’ Like a Rose
I never stutter when I’m alone
We were two guinea pigs on little island
darting into the other’s fur
The art of back-scratching
A certain architecture or ballet
As a child I spent hours searching
for a word that rhymes with orange
The doctor said my cervix
was like a tiny mouth, smiling
I mistook my nipple
for a pebble at the beach
It’s no longer smiling, she said,
inserting the speculum into me
The citizens of this land build massive sculptures
to honour the king And when he is pleased he shows mercy
And if he is displeased he rouses a hurricane
At very end of our trip it was supposed to rain but didn’t
We approached Wavefield but didn’t walk on the wave
We lay by a wall of stone where I read to you “Mending Wall”
And after weeks of discomfort, finally cracked my back
At home I bathed in the green copper water
I asked what you were building and you said context
We should think of each day as having twelve rounds
I’m tired of feeling things in my body Like ions
All the apartment’s doorknobs have been removed
The last tenant afraid of being locked inside
In a house with no exits It’s details that frustrate:
That my mother described her symptoms to a pharmacist
concerned they were a side effect of medication
(she was having the heart attack that killed her)
I stare into middle distance as defence mechanism
(so I don’t get attacked on the subway again)
Fear manifests as compulsion Where is the feeling
I used to have (that life was taking place)